Have you ever had a reading from a psychic? Before yesterday, I never had. I admit, I have a pretty open mind and I have always been a little curious to see what the hype was all about. So yesterday, at a vendor event I had my first reading from a local psychic.
Let. Me. Tell. You.
Back up a little. My sister went first. During her reading, the psychic asked her about kids in her life. She explained that she didn’t have any children but her sister did. My sister is extremely close with my 2 1/2 year old son. The psychic told her that he was supposed to be a twin and that the twin’s spirit is with her a lot. HOLD ON A SECOND, WHAT?
Sign me up for a psychic reading STAT!
My interest was peaked and I NEEDED to hear that for myself. I sat down with her, mind you she has NO idea who I am. Most of the time, this sort of thing would make me feel uneasy and weird. I felt nothing but calm and curious. She explained to me that my beautiful baby boy was supposed to be a twin. His twin’s spirit was not ready to be born but he’s still here with us. He will join us later on in life as another child. He will be very sensitive.
I literally felt myself falling apart emotionally on the inside. You can never fully describe what such powerful and raw emotions feel like. All I can say is that I felt like either crying or jumping up and down and I wasn’t sure which one would have won… So I sat there and listened. It was all I could do.
Why is this insane information?
Do you remember me saying earlier how I have always been in tune with my body? When I was pregnant… VERY early on, I had this powerful feeling that I was pregnant with twins. My body just knew. I have always wanted twins so I always secretly hoped, but it never felt quite like this. Not only did I have a lot of the symptoms, but I was showing way earlier than normal. A few people I know casually told me they thought it was twins…I obsessed. I googled everything that had to do with twin pregnancies.
We had to wait a month or so for our first ultrasound. When we went, I remember my heart jumping for a split second when the screen popped up and they touched the cold ultrasound wand to my warm belly. I swore I saw two. Afraid I would jinx it if I spoke up, I remained quiet… So I waited. And the Dr. only talked about one baby. My heart literally sunk because I was SO sure…..
I went home, excited to have seen our beautiful baby. But I was confused and sad thinking that I was wrong about something I was so sure about. I felt silly for ever having even obsessed over it.
Back to that reading…
Hearing her say to my face that my gut was right brought this insane excitement and calm over me. I had clarity. She went on to finish the reading basically telling me things about myself that she never could have figured out by just looking at me. Deep internal struggles I have had with my career choice and how I am handling it all. She told me that someone in my life travels a lot for work (my husband) and that needs to change because it is stressing us both out. (It is.)
Why am I sharing this with you?
Ever get that feeling inside of you, when you learn something exciting or new, and you feel like your body will burst like a balloon if you don’t tell EVERYONE you know?
That’s how I feel. I am still a little in shock. I feel a little sad to know that I could have had twin boys. Especially because my son has just the BEST personality and two of him would have just been beautiful… But I feel good to know that he is there. That we will eventually see him. And I do believe it. Call me crazy but I do.